Yawns Yawns

Got My position dy.. sigh sigh.. gotten no 8..

No too happie not to sad, manage to be in the top 10, will work harder.. need to go higher up.. =]

TUESDAY.


Ate KFC with my folks

They gave me this toy, which is VERY annoying

Then at night, since my bro had a day off, Mum wanted to bring us somewhere delicious, but then, it was their day off too.. HAHA.. So went for korean instead.. *cough cough* I don't think it's suitable for me..

Pictures not in sequence









The banner

ice cream.. dessert =]

Side dishes.





it's not painted, it's sewn on ..





The menu



Look so retard!! HAHA
Went back.. skip for bout half an hour,, shower.. did maths..

After maths .. camwhore. =p




Look err.. haha






I like.. =]

Off to badminton.. byebye

Again nothing much

At school , Combine class with 4m.. so bored lo todae.. didn't really do much anyway..

So sleepy tho, especially during maths,, Their teacher .. @_@

=p

Then after school, no tenth period so lepak around the canteen then saw yi lin, yi ling, Divya and some others.. cracking jokes, making fun .. seriously funny.. hehehe..

After that , mummy came to fetch me , then headed to Leisure mall for lunchiee



Ate Chee Chiong Funnn.. yummiesss

Whuahuahua..

Then walk around then balik

nothing much la.. I hope tomorrow dun combine class
can die.. >_< haha

have to continue add maths.. urgh..

so kesian la! After exam still got homework to do..

sigh sigh

-Lenna-

Nothing much...

Went out for dinner just now..Was sitting and one of the fans were behind of me.. well not so close.. so I didn't mind..then after that, one family came.. a big one.. then there's this guy, he keep pushing the fan backwards, meaning towards me.. then I felt something touched me.. So I look behind and I was facing the fan! FUH! shocked.. HE SAW THAT! YET HE SAY " BACK SUMMORE" then my mum " Excuse me Mr. You can't keep pushing back.." *still pushing* "If My daughter's hair get stuck in the fan how?!?!? *raising her voice* * STILL PUSHING!!* YOU PAY FOR HER MEDICAL FEE IS IT? OR NOT HER LIFE IS IT??" *stops pushing and act as if nothing happens..!!

GOSH!! WHAT A JERK MAN!!! Idiot.. @!#!%@#$^#%^!$! urgh, hate people like dat.

I thought of saying to him " Mr, If I put a fan close to your toddler's head, You like it anot?? WAnna try?? " So frust man, but I just cluck my tongue at him.. hurmp.


then Came back, mum use the comp.. so I camwhore.. ahah.. very long didn't camwhore dy KAY! =p



this was the fan after it was pulled away, If I get bold or lose my scalp.. I'm gonna find him. .

HE'S THE GUY!! URGH!

hehe


Trying black and white

=D

being lame


random

If this was a blank page or a blank wall, What would you do to it?

at the restaurant.. dam tulang.. =p trying sepia..

Self Timer.. =D


SElf timer

=D




Love. Faith.Hope. Wanted to write the love in words.. but boy.. end up argeliii..

I'm trap in this box people call a room...


was just emoing moments ago.. I like this shot.. abit artistic.. HAHA

nitey nites..

-Lenna-

I'm actually quite lazy to post..


but then I wouldn't have the time tomorrow I assume..


first thing,
I HATE ppl saying " you stupid or what? " GAH! hate it soo much


Todae, my poh poh's house ( mommy's side) got robbed..Lucky she and gong gong wasn't home..

nothing valueable was missing .. but the door.. sigh.. and my uncle decided to put alarm..

So, manage to finish chem ONLY gosh, tomorrow ha ve to wake up early wey... so much things to do..

have to sleep soon too.. haha..but I'm feeling queasy urgh..

let the pictures do the talking okay?


Pictures not in sequence..





Flowers that my gong gong ( father's side) plant.. =D


My bubble pearl tea.. =]

At the food court

Aunty's room

Sigh.. look at the clothes.. all over the place... **** you idiot thief.. we know who you are.. sigh.. inside story, don't ask.

On monday.. how I tied my hair.. hehe

Last time, look how big is the difference..

Which is better?


Me, after skipping for 15 minutes.. hehe.. so long neva exercise.. jor.. body aching. HAHA joking, but seriously, very long didn't exercise..

neways.. off to bed..

nitey nite..


-Lenna-

Just..

I have no idea..
these memories, they pile and pile..

I wish.. I could just hide .
Just cry my heart out and to never ever care.

I wish I could scream
Just scream it all out and left with nothingness

I wish, I could laugh out loud
just laugh all the misery out of me and to act as if nothing ever happened.

I wish I could forget
forget all the pain that ever struck me.

I wish I could remember
the things that make me happy, carefree and so loved...

These are just memories.. and memories only..

Oh how I wish I could revive these memories..
and just be stuck with it.. Living in my own fantasy land and not to care any of these bull shits life had set for us..

Choices, decisions, options.. paths.. ways..

We have to choose.. WHY??

I don't want to make them. .if that means hurting one person or another..

Sometimes, I just feel like there's no one there for me..
to cling on, to rely on , to spill every precious secrets that I keep to myself.
and everyone just tell me , that's how life is..
Be independent

I am.. but THERE ARE TIMES that you really need a shoulder to cry on,
an ear to listen your craps.. A hand to cling on..
why is it that I feel that no one is there for me when I really needed them most?

Cause this world is such a cold place to be..
everyone is busy with their own life..
everyone couldn't care less
or even to hear what you repeated for many times..
sumtimes you want people to ONLY LISTEN to your problems..
but they think it's annoying, irritating..


Where were you guys , when I needed you most?
Where are you NOW? cause right now, I can't seem to breather, or take a step towards the future..

I'm just walking back .. walking and walking..

Someone oh someone..
just come help me..




-Lenna-

I have no Idea...

Well,

I missed school today, yupyup.. cause they have the RIMOTE ( I dunno what's that either) for the form 3's ..

My school invited MBS over for some games.. So yeah, I just miss school =p

and now, I don't have ANYTHING TO BLOG ABOUT.. life's been abit boring.. teehe..

GAH!! blogger getting siao!

I can't upload photos

Alright

Tomorrow I have to do :

Maths homework
Chemistry homework
Moral tugasan
Exercise.. haha..
Practise Piano!!
Wake up early
Physics homework
Addmaths homework =((

err.. I think that's all gua.. haha..


see!! holiday coming still got homework..

darn sad la..

nvm nvm!!
try to fi nish it!!

yeah.. okay... off dy..

wanna read my book.. whheeeheee..


Questions asked,
Answers left untold..
This shall be mine , and mine only..

I like this quote.. haha

Wanting isn't the same as loving

-Lenna-

SNAKE ON THE LOOSE!!

eeek


there's a snake on the loose in my neighbourhood!!

Mummy is getting very caution about this...

I don't know if I can't sleep well for today anot..

I want to go hotel sleep.. =( before they get the snake..

Me SCARED.... huhuhu..

help help .. =(


I want to blog longer, but horh, I very scared la, I try not to stay in one place too long..

gtg, bye~

Just one of those days..

Exhausted...

Currently in love with these songs..


Pin Guan- When I needed you most.
Janice- Wu Shou Wei.
Janice- My love my fate.
JJ - Down
Taylor Swift- Teardrops on my Guitar
Secondhand Serenade-Your Call
Sarah Conner- One Last Dance
Shayne Ward - No Promises.
Micheal Learn To rock-You took my heart away.
Micheal Learn To Rock- That's why you go away.


Today did add maths for bout 3 hour ++ .. gah.. and I got back my add maths paper 1.. I screw the paper.. how could I even READ wrongly!! unforgiven.. so muuuchhh mistakes.. I'm gonna fail.. =/

Sigh .. nvm,, what has past , has passed.. Work harder, aim higher.. and hope for the better..

Love.Faith.Hope.

=]

Don't push me, cause I'm fragile.

If you love me so, let me be free.

I always complain bout how much I did.. but now I realise.. what I did, wasn't enough.

If you hold someone so tight, They'll suffocate.. They will only leave you sooner..

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened..

I'm trying to be optimistic..
Trying to look everything in a better view, angle.. perspective.

-Lenna-

Why all the sudden you started to care??
Of every move I take,
Or every breath I breathe on.

Why all the while you gave me freedom,
and all of the sudden you just lock me back in the cage?

I'm a disappointment aren't I?
But you never gave any expectations to me.
You never held any barrier,
There is no ladder to reach my destination.

Just all of the sudden,
I feel that ,
I'm not good enough for both of you.

Whenever you see my marks,
you will not say anything,
but just purse your lips,
declaring the conversation has ended.

When I make an effort to do something,
both of you , just can't see,
how much I've improved, or how much effort I've put in.
You would just say, " I've wasted so much money on you, and this is all you can give me? "

Maybe, It really wasn't enough.
How was I to know, what was your expectations towards me.
You weren't strict to me before, why now?

You know how hard it is for me to tell both of you things?
Cause I would know what is your reaction,
your answer.


Maybe it's true,
I was never good enough for both of you..
You guys held an invisible barrier,
just waiting me to find it.. or to even reach it.

Maybe, just maybe...
I was never good enough for both of you to begin with..

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GAH! whatever.. I'm just.. gah.. I have no idea anymore..

these stress, pressure, tension , just pile up on me..

the expectations that once weren't there, is showing off slowly.

This emotion, you could never understand.


-Lenna-

Just one of those post....

Suddenly I lost all the mood for blogging..

One thing, It's cause of the screen colour... It's YELLOW!! GAH!!

and me , being lazy .. and not trying to take the risk to rack my whole computer up.. haha..
I'll just wait for my brother to come back and deal with it..

In the meantime, I'm sulking.. hahaha..

Sorta lazy to blog larh..

Who would do their ironing at 1 am in the morning?

Me.

ahah.. yeap a lil crazy i know, but what the heck..




This is how much I had to iron.. haha..

now , I have been sick a few days.. and I'm feeling better thanks to..

This, I've been relying on this alot.. gah!! too much drugs!!


My new shoes.. =D

yesterday Family and I went to TS for a short while, cause it's pretty late.. then we walked around bintang walk .. I think
It was fun.. until.. I was walking as usual.. then suddenly a guy was walking towards me.. He suddenly bend so close to me.. well I have to bend as well cause I didn't want him to touch me wouldn't I.. he was smirking as well.. I gave him.. the ' excuse me' look.. and he just walk off..

BOY! what NERVE !! GAH.. doinks..

Neways.. I was wondering.. was I dressed too overly?? but I saw MANY and I mean MANY who were more flashing than I am.. anyways.. they have a book sale at TS on the 3rd floor by popular.. And I bought a book... yipeee..

Jodi Picoult book.. =D *smiling like mad* it's actually 35 bucks, but after 20% it's 28... EEE!!!
I wanted to buy more.. but daddy said, Read slowly, one at a time.. Jodi picoult is a good writer.. =D you might be thinking, this girl , she buy this book cause of the cover.. .. yeah.. you could see a guy kissing a girl.. but so what.. don't judge a book by it's cover.. hurmp.. haha.

Got back home..


Was this over revealing?? i think not. = =









Hehe, I'm just self-obsessed.. haha..

one more thing.. I'm fat.. =(

boo hoo.. need ta lose weight!!! gah.. especially d tummy.. haha..

and School's starting tomorrow.. dun feel like going to school though .. but I must! cause syllabus haven't finish. hehe..

Going out.. gtg..

bye~

-Lenna-