Friday!

Gah! had Add maths tuition just now... Omgosh.. couldn't do you know.. argh.. so saddening.. !!

Must do alots of exercise this weekend.. not to forget chem , bio and est.. then I'll be free!!! =D

must really work hard la.. I mean this past few papers right, I did study , but end up making lots of mistakes.!! NOOO.. how could I ??

Like Physics 3, omgosh.. die .

Anyways.. I promised the clothings picture and my infamous camwhoreness.. haha.. =D

Before that! JOin FACEBOOK! It's abit like friendster, sort of better, cause of the applications and other things.. join and see if you like it.. =D

It has few features.. all jumbled up together, it's quite cool, like for ex: you can slap one person.. but too bad you can't see the action being done.. wish it could la.. then it would be sooo fun! =D

I'm still a little confuse bout it tho.. but it's getting more interesting.. I wish they could get that feature.. when the actions you wanna do to that person , can be showed.. then it will be perfect =p

okay, exaggerating much.. anyways.. I'll show some of the pictures first.. =D



I like this pants =D no, it's not 3/4 altho it looks like, but it isn't! =D


Hehe, a closer look on the pants =D me likey.


A two-piece in one kinda shirt.. haha..



Inside.


outside. there's still more but, sorry, suddenly outta mood.. =(

nites people.

-Lenn-

Lalax

haha.. don't know why.. I'm hyper right now..


Tomorrow I'm having moral.. studied like bab 2 only..

bah.. gonna wake up later and study =D

my method/tactic.. so that i won't forget.. yah! =D

I'm crazy.. instead of studying just now, I cam-whored all the way..

haha.. gtg!

nite pigs darlings =D


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oh yeah.. PHYSICS was okay.. but paper 3 can die ... hua.. =D

-Lenna-

EL! your infamous eyebrow act* =D

I'm done!

I'm done with you.

I'm done with people who wants to delete me.

I'm done with people who assume something else of me when they hardly know me.

I'm done with "your" attitude.

I'm thoroughly done with people who doesn't wanna face their problems.

I'm done with your heartbreaking skills, go put it up with someone else.

I'm done thinking of the reasons, why people delete me.


haha.. something in me just popped.

whatever..

gotta bath and continue with maths..

gah, the horror =D

good bye..

feeling clearer and clearer each day..


-Lenna-

Exammmmsss

arrhhh, exam's stress..

just to tell you guys!

gonna take my exam won be blogging.. =D

I hope i won't >_ <

cuz it would mean that I'm not studying.. noooo...

okay gtg..=D

I want to post the clothes I bought.. haha.. but I guess that will have to wait..
nyways.. bye ~

Wish me luck!

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Gah.

I realise something.


I don't love you anymore =D
I read a post and I saw that the blogger had similar feelings that I feel.
And I feel that she managed to describe MY feelings out as well as hers.


She is able to describe it but I am unable to.
I can't find the words.
Gah
Mayb all this while, I'm feeling this way because of the loneliness inside of me.

You know,
even if I break up with someone, I would still be their friend no matter what.. I don't believe in 'No friends to be after breaking up' that's just crap.
but I have a few which would just plainly avoid me , and when I ask for a reason, he could not give me one.


There were times when I wondered, Am I the problem? Am I such a intolerant , troublesome (inserts more) gf? Till now I have no idea. I really don't.

But WHAT I HATE THE MOST IS. yes hate not dislike. I hate it when people starts ignoring me. When they start shoving me aside. When they start to avoid me. When they start to delete me from anywhere they can. and without a reason. I hate that you know. It makes me feel ' What have I done wrong?' that kinda thing.

When I really have absolute no idea about!!! I extremely hate losing any friends .

Actually the main reason of the post is. IF you want to avoid me/delete me , whatsoever, just tell me beforehand why, or you're gonna do so, cause I hate to find it out last. I hate to know that the person I've been with, my friend , just suddenly deletes me. Most probably you have a reason, but CAN'T YOU SOLVE IT OUT WITH ME? why not be honest? INSTEAD OF DELETING ME LIKE THAT!

This isn't the first time I've been deleted or I don't know whatsoever more, it doesn't make sense but I don't care.

I have rants on the friendster blog about I don't know what I did wrong and people are avoiding/blaming me.

but now.. ARGH!

extremely pissed.

I hate hate hate people doing that.
you may think I'm harsh. hah~ don't read then, DELETE ME THEN.

who knows, I might will emo later on, and I might hid in one corner and cry.

bah. who cares. not like I care now. I just want people to be honest with me. If you don't like what I did , just tell me. I know I'll feel angry/pissed or whatever, but at least I know the truth!!!!

I can rant more, but decide not to..


-Lenna-

Brings back The Memories.~

Just a ultimately short post I hope.

I felt very unmannerable , dunno if there's such word! Gah need to make this quick. anyways. yeah , I felt that way cause I didn't accept my award with both of my hands. Although I did say Thank you but as a token of RESPECT I should have.. but I didn't. Boo, shame on me.

Went to SPCA todae, wanted to pick out another dog, since My dog, died. Wanted the Dalmation but it was taken. boohoo =(

yeah , had a talk with El todae, El, I didn't know you felt that way around me. I feel that way too sometimes around you.. and I really appreciated that you gimme all those advices, and I can do it all those stuff.. but yeah.. I told you right? I have one problem.. or mayb more..


I can't pass thru myself.

but el, really thanks alot.. and I know you guys are getting bored of me ranting bout him. but seriously, ubberly confused, and I should not put that infront of me know, I should just yank it back wherever it came from. Should study now..

want to write more, but time forbid.

Thanks El, I wurve you :D

yeah I know you lurve me too =D

P.s we're not Les.. so shoo! =D
OH yeah i will , i think I'll blog lesser, exam's in a week ..
and I'll try not to be so emoish.. I won't pwomise. cause I know I can't keep it..
I'll TRY !


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The emo-ness in me...

A test...

I saw this post posted by one of the bloggers i read.. ehehe.. decided to post it up too.. =D

quick! go grab a pencil and paper.


Here goes:

1. You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but is very plain and boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get to your signigicant other's house, short or long?

2. On the way you see 2 rose bushes, One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend, of any color combination. What number of white and red do you pick? (you can pick all of one or any combination of the two)

3. You finally get to the house. A family member answers the doors. You can have them get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself. Which do you do?

4. You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?

5. Later, it's time for bed, You and your boy/girlfriend go to sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up you go in his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive, is he/she awake or asleep?

6. Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain road or the longer, more interesting road?

****** my answers! ******

the one in purple is THE answers. while the one in BLUE is MY ANSWERS. please dun get confused. +_#

The road represents your attitude towards falling in love. If you take the short road, you fall in love quickly and easily. If you take the long road, you take your time and do not fall in love as easily.

I took the short road.
It's partially true lerhs.. haha.. but now, I only have one person in mind.. and that's like.. sigh.. I can't have him la, kay? sigh.. can't let go too.. so saddening =(

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The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return. For example, if you chose 18 red and 2 white, you give 90 and expect 10 return.

I choose half half, meaning 10 red and 10 white.. So I give equally and expect equally in return..

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This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems. If you asked the family member to get your significant other, then you like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves. If you went to get them yourself, then you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.

I get him myself la of course =p .. cuz I feel like going in his room and giving him a surprise.. IF not like, you ask his family mem get him , then he have to come back down and get you then bring you up again. marfans anot?? haha.. but depends on the situation la.. If first time go ppl's house , I'll sure ask the familie member, if not barge in like you own the place a?

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The placement of roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend. Placing them on the bed means you like to see them a lot, while placing them on the windowsill means that you are alright with not seeing them as much. You chose to place them.

I chose bed.
True. I like to see them. but i don't have the choice. I can't see them much. =(
Wish I cud la.. so anyhow I'll choose the bed :D
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This representative of your attitude towards their personality. If you find him/her asleep, you love your boy/girlfriend the way he/she is. If you find him/her awake, you expect him/her to change for you.

What if I found him asleep bt in the state of waking up? haha.. siao siao me.
ermsss.... I think asleep wud be better. I get to look at his adorable face while sleeping. Wakao. can blackmail him if he snores! haha.. joking la.. sa fa chiong ny.. won do much =p If me I will love/like the way he is. If I don't like la, I'll tell him lowh, be honest, but he want to change up to him la. I mean I won't purposely force him to change, make both of us unhappy only, right??? right?? please say right . =(

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The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone. If you chose the short road, you fall out of love easily. If you chose the longer one, you will tend to stay in love for a long time.

I chose the long road =)
no explanation given.. haha. Suddenly lost all the words.. @_@



What was your answers??

Is it the same as mine??
Have fun!


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P.S Sorry for the broken English =p

IT's 4 in the morning

yearps, it's 4 in the morning.. I just well couldn't sleep, been thinking too much.. and i sud sleep now actually.. haha..

been playing maple as well, well at least it could take problems off for a while..


nyways.. just a silly post.. woohoo..

need ta study man..


Oh yeah, i was told to FUCK off as well..


I will not tell why.. well, mayb.. depends

nites~

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Earthquake...

Woah, Earthquake from Indonesia affected the southern part of Malaysia. Can you believe it??

Got it from the internet.

KUALA LUMPUR:The massive earthquake off the western coast of Indonesia’s Sumatra island sent “shudders” to several parts of Malaysia.

Residents in high-rise units either dashed down on their own or were directed to do so by security personnel. Most reported feeling tremors at about 7.15pm.

A Kuala Lumpur City Hall official said the operations centre received information that tremors were felt in Setapak, Cheras, Jalan Pudu and several other parts of the city.

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I however did not felt it.. I donno, my whole family did not felt it either.. hmm.. never realise such earthquake could cause Malaysia a big mess... I think Singapore is affected too cause it's just below of Malaysia.

Anyways, hope everthing return to normal ..

=)


know why I'm not blogging??

cause I feel emo, I want to blog bout awesomely sad things, sorry can't help it.. I try to blog bout happy things but i look at the 4 pillars of wall with pure agony. Gosh.. I feel so lonely, I feel so hurt, I feel disowned, I feel, lost.

and it's not cause of a boyfriend kay? I don't have one.. hmm not like anyone wants me anyway..
It's just someone else...

YOU WANT ME??

haha, I doubt it..


I just need my emo days to pass by.. and yeah i need to concentrate on my studies as exam is the following week after the next.. So yeah, got to buck up although it's only form 4 final year, but I wanna try to get better grades from now on so it would help my college application, God knows where I'm heading too, I'm clueless.. nyways.. too tired, and yay , I finished my Bio assignment and boo, My est presentation sux and so much embarrassing things happened today haha..


and I want to change my blogskin.. =D found pretty awesome ones , just need to find time for it.

Reminder ---

-Ask RACH to fax over the NOTES!!!---

nite =D

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Myself, and I

I... feel hurt..

I feel extremely tired

I feel very stressful

I feel that I'm running out of time

I feel so lost

I feel so lonely

I feel like crying

I feel so useless

I feel fear

I feel hatred

I feel so many emotions..

I want to get away from this


I want someone to be there

I want to feel love

I want to be love

I want to experience

I want to excel

I want to succeed

I want to let go

I want many things



I can't do this anymore

I can't understand

I can't let go.


I feel so desperate @_@

And so the list goes on,

I feel so urgh, emo..

Sorry can't help it..


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I'm

I'm Sick,
I'm tired,
I have homeworks piling,
I have exams coming..

gah, now life isn't at the best state right now..

I can't believe I'm writing this as my 100th post

how saddening,

sigh..

I need to rush for my assignment now..

Till then,

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bah.

-Lenna-

Shocking Newss

My brother got into an accident,

Told my brother's Gf,

after awhile,

She send an sms saying that he's alright.

THANK GOD.

Of nothingness and Somethingness..

Haha,

I know the title of the post is funny.. owh what the heck, I'm running out of titles to put and things to blog.. haha.. actually I have plenty to blog, but I'm just lazy , and there are times when I want to blog, but I just go apathetic or I've forgotten what I've wanted to blog.. haha.. sorry!!

I'm try to blog more often..

First off,

Todae is an unluckie unluckie day..

Today's my FIRST PAPER, Karangan and Essay.
Fuh, I think I'm gonna fail for BM, I wrote so short.. and I didn't have enough time for both of the papers.. for section B essay, wrote bout 2 and a half pages, but my story isn't finish, and I didn't much time, so pratically my ending sux..

After the exam, MUM CAME LATE, so had to hitch a ride from EL. I forgot that it was BRIANNA, haha.. okay okay , BRIAN'S birthday.. I soooo sorry I forgotten it BRIAN.. crap now have to save lagi money to get your present.. anyone who's so kind and generous, would like to donate some money to me??xD ( only accept RM 50 and above.. =D)

Went for lunch and went to the playground for a swing.. =D It felt so good, haha.. it's been quite long since I sat the swing..

Next , headed to TESCO to get presents for My two adorable little cousin bwothers.. whose birthday I don't know when , but around this date as well, and I'm going to celebrate with them tomorrow, I'll try to get pictures.. =D

I was at the small arcade, playing the basketball thingy, and my brother kept throwing the ball high, and as a result, it hit my nose. OUCH!!!!!! I was sooo pissed off, and after that I didn't want to play anymore and my nose was hurt..argh! oh yeah, did I mention I was in still in my school uniform? argh.. Dad and mummy persuade me larh to play, cause we had extra tokens, then after that we finally got out presents! so yeah, while waiting for the queue, my mum and dad went wondered around, I was so frustrated cause it's our turn already, and I hadn't any money with me.. My dad came back and then I had to look for my mum, I had to pass through my dad, but his hand was above me and he didn't give me much space, I tried and manage to move by getting my head hit.. ARGH!!!!

so mighty pissed, came back just head to my room and sleep.. hah.. now I feel so much better..

and I'm actually quite bored.. hmm who knows , Mayb I'll really do the Task Elena has set for all of us( SS members)

haha, I did some chamwhoring again, and I went shopping I think last week, Manage to buy clothes.. ahha..went to few places to get it.. Mid Valley, Time Square, Sg.Wang etc etc..

I didn't take pictures of them yet, I'm too lazy.. I shall post up MY own face.. ahaha.. =p



Hie.. =D


This is quite fake.. wheheheh.. but still I like it.


I haven't the faintest idea what I've been doing.

shh.. EL! : SHADDAP AND DRIVE. ahah =p


the so called octopus mouth.. blehhh.. =p

The hand just ruin everything

just look and me and be dazed.. =D

End of post~

I shall find things to post more often..

Exam in two weeks!
10 days and 22 papers! gah..


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A Promising update

I know that I'm suppose to update this earlier.. haha.. but I was busy.. blehhh..

okay..

WED,29 Aug 07
I missed school.. I have a very good excuse kay! I followed my brother to P. Ketam.. yeah you heard it right.. haha.. I skipped school just to get my butt there.. hahaa..

well.. It was fun tho.. sigh.. I'm getting lazy to write.. =p

(please note that my brother is a special kid)

Went to his school at SMK DESA PETALING. and no, it's not a special school, it's sort off mix.. they have special classes for him and his other school mates and yes there are normal student if that's how you name it.

anyways.. by the time we reach there, he was late for ahem, assembly. he quickly ran to the assembly ground and stood straight.. haha.. so adorable! then they started singing the national anthem " NEGARAKU" oh yeah.. before that.. the girls are all infront .. then there's a gap.. then guys lined up at the back.. I was like fuh.. need anot.. lolx..


Right they were singing.. and were singing so softly, my gosh couldn't hear a single thing. Then there was one loud voice, which overruled the whole assembly ground and those who were singing. and I was finding.. who was it?? I wondered. Just then I saw, it was a boy who come from the same class as my brother, his name is Jason.

now, Jason, how shall I describe him? He is tall, and he can speak cantonese I think pretty well. A problem with him , well not A but one of the problem I know, I observed, is that he couldn't control his bladder. For that he needs to wear PAMPERS all the time. now don't laugh, it's very rude. It seriously is. I mean you can't blame him for being like that can you? I say NO. You practically can't.

There were many more . One of the teacher saw me looking at the rows, and she pointed to another boy, who couldn't stay still. He has that sickness.. ARGH! I forgot the name AGAIN! gosh. There were much much more.

anyways.After assembly, those who were not going went back up to class. and those who went , went and lined up. I was going with my brother and his class mates as well as the Chinese club Society.

After getting everything done, we headed to the KTM station. and we had to walk.. I was like dumbstruck. being a pampered brat , heh, and every school trip I went , we never had to walk. I mean we do but not to .. sigh.. you get the point right? so yeah, we WALKED to the KTM station. hehe.

okay , so we waited and went off to KL sentral and sat another KTM to PELABUHAN KLANG.
and there we set the ferry for bout an hour I think, to reach the destination..



waiting for the KTM


Inside the KTM, heading to Pelabuhan Klang


Jacklyn, unsure on how to spell her name.

The view, during the ferry ride.


The view.. quite a nice day..


can you see an eagle there?

Then half way we visited the place where they rare fishes, it has a name as well, and I forgot.. Agriculture..

This is how the place looks like


This is the path we had to take.. and some and realllllyy wobbly..


My brother and his friend =D
After that we reached our destination and we quickly had lunch. sorry no pictures of the food, cause practically everyone was hungry so yeah, they gobbled them.. heh.

After eating, we had some time at the restaurant, so I decided to take some pictures of them, well let's say THEY wanted ME to take a picture of them.. haha..

She is quite a sweet girl, but knowing her a day can't really make my judgment though. El she is the who calls me "jie jie, don't take her picture."

This is Mei ling... She's a very... err... and She will always get scolding from the teachers and the girls..haha.. they seem to hate her alot.. sigh..

El this is the tai ka jie, I mention to you about.. heheh..


My brother! Cute =D


Went to visit the temple..

then headed to the ice factory.. ate a little ice then head back to the ferry.

She's cute.. haha.. she's 6 .

Her sister. I think she's 3-4



So Jealous, she's got highlights.. why JOHOR SO GOOD HARH???


lolx..

I guess that's all.. =p


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MERDEKA!

MERDEKA!!

one more minute till merdeka is over..

haha..

Merdeka means independence.. this is the day when Malaysia is free from being colonized by other country..

This is also the 50th year of our independence.. so proud.. =D

Whee..

Happy 50th Independence Day MALAYSIA!!

muah muah.. I wurve you.. hahaa..

So happie can?? lolx

kay... many of my friends went to DATARAN MERDEKA in the early morning.. while I've been sleeping since 30th Aug 07 at 11.00pm till 31th Aug 07 about 11.00 am .. xD so yeah.. I practically miss everything this year.. the fireworks , the performance, the boring speeches.. and much more.. I miss quite a lot of things this year.. Marsh house sukan tara, The run.. alot.. sigh sigh..

nyways.. so I celebrated merdeka by going shopping.. =D went to time square.. it was quite late tho.. hehe.. but I did get to shop.. and I finally got a.... pants.. lolx.. hmm.. then went to the night market located in Taman Segar.. nothing much.. =D

so I celebrated my merdeka by going shopping, how bout you??


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-Lenna- MERDEKA!