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I'm a BITCH

I'm a PAMPERED CHILD,

I'm a CRY BABY

I'm a PAIN IN THE ARSE

I THROW BITCH FIT LOTS

MY ATTITUDE SUX

I SUX

KNOW WHAT?

I DUN FUCKING CARE!

Of shocking news , and birthday girls.

Todae, my headmaster announced that one of our school mates, from 5h, Amalina, had passed away yesterday.

unsure of how she looked like, and how she died, but anyhow, may you rest in peace.


anyways, todae so happened to be Amiera and Aziera's birthay, and yes they are twins.

During the first few periods, we felt tension thru the air, everyone wanting to sing a happie burfday song for them , but felt like it wasn't right..

but after school, we stayed back and sang happie birthday to them, and lookie what, they brought cake.. hehe.. chocolatey cake =)

at the end, after eating , me and el went and attacked them with the chocolate cream.. wheee..eheh. =p

and todae, I'm really sorry of my harshness and bitchy mood,

don't know what's gone into me, it's like I get extremely jealous easily, of simple things, and
my patience limit has reduce sooo much. usually, I won't like get pissed of easily for such things la.. but todae.. goodness..tomorrow have to go and apologize.

sighs..

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-Lenna-

Lenna's Birthday List.. O.o

okay, I was suppose to post my Wish/Birthday/Present list long ago.

So that you guys will take the hint *cough cough* haha. and err, got time to get me la.. if don't want also nvm.

It's my blog nyways. bleh! *shows tongue!!* it's next week by the way.. haha.. 2nd of July.

well, here goes.

before that, I would like to wish Mr.Darren Ho, A happy se-weet 16 birthday. =)
assesory

Wish List.
1.Chooocoollateee xD
2. Soft toys, Plushies.. hehe.. (prefer Adorable one ya.. xD )
3. A 2 gig memory card for my phone.. huhuhu.. T__T P.S I using Sony ericsson K610i =)
4. Stooory books, not the kiddy kiddy type yeah. like David Pelzer's My story. absolute love it, altho I didn't get to read finish, altho I just started reading, so charm lowh hhim...
5.Accessory-muahha.. I'm a gal right?
6. Revision books.. this is a lame birthday present , but what the heck la! I'm darn broke.. T__T
7. MONEI! HAHAH.
8. A new set of handsfree, bluetooth.. =D
9. SOUND SYSTEM CD!! ARGH..
10. New note books, the small small one, don wan huge huge one, cute wan la.. LOL, so picky horh me? hahaha..
11. Can you find me a tutor pls?? LOLX!!!! this is hilarious.
12. Clothes lowh.. if you know my size.. hahaha.. suprisingly, the shirt Zaena bought for me, I can wear ! Whee =)
13. I can't think of anymore leh.. cause others expensssiive one.. aihx.. mm hou yi si wanna say out lowh.. HAHA


news update: STUPID LA!! SATURDAY GOT SCHOOL! *puts in vulgar words!! *
I tot wanna go out and have a small outing ke or whatsoeva.. =( I don't want my birthday to be like last year. *shudders* it brings back the memories.. sigh..


and sort off hope , next year can celebrate with my special someone, who has yet to be shown .. lol.. Who is dat? I also dunno. se-weet 16 ma.. haha.. dun get my hopes too high.. sigh.

will update whenever,

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=)

-Lenna-

Wilderness Camp At Langkawi 2o07! Group RIGEL =D

First Day at camp..



After sorting everyone to their own groups.. this is when Rigel members are getting to know each other.. =)



First Campsite

WE went to our first campsite, near the beach.. sorry.. Forgotten the name.. haha..

Listening to what KaK KD ( one of Rigel's trainer) says.

Setting up our owh, so wonderful toilets.. xD

The next day....

Doing exercise..

1 2 3 4 ... ....xD

we learned kayaking and water confidence that day.. oh yeah.. and to overturn our kayaks..


My partner and I.. just overturned the kayak

Me trying to get up.. I was having a hard time, mainly cause I didn't errm.. paddle? is that the word??




that's Abang Uteh, another trainer..
Reached our destination , Pulau Pasir playing after lunch.. =D

WE were suppose to kayak to langkawi also.. but.. haha..

We had to kayak back to our camp site..



all of our group there...

behind standing up.. hehe.. =D

We were quite tired when kayaking back tho.. haha.. and it was hot..
but we finally made it back to the campsite..


cooking team cooking dinner =D

Following day..

We went back to base camp, sort off 'showered' our trainer just splash us wif water, to make us wet from head to toe.. then we were given bout 5 minutes to change into dry clothes.. after that we had a short demonstration of what we're doing next..


Kak KD and Abang Yon showing us the rope.. and the tools for later activity having on the ship..
Me wearing brown, Farah wearing green , and Cyril wearing his white shirt.. haha..

Yong Kang becoming the model.. haha


Sitting on the ferry....


on the ferry...

ahh, caught in the action of sleeping.. so bad la.. I just needed some time to rest.. issh.. xD

after getting to rest bout 10 mins, Group Vega invaded the ferry, ahha.. so RIGEL one side VEGA one side.. WE weren't suppose to talk to each other, but Me and ELena just talked.. =p

When we reached the ship, we saw nother two groups, I don't know the name, but one group has Sha in it.. hehe.. after that, Group VEGA did the activity first, then err RIGEL Went in the ship to get a short talk bout MARITIME industry..



playing with the things.. =p

then after the talk , our turn to do the BOOM and POSTIES ( not sure if spelling is correct)



getting ready =)



Me xD

AFter everyone did the activity, we were getting ready to get back to base camp and head to our new camp site


Rigel.. haha.. listening to what Kak Kd and Abang Yon have to say, then we played a short game =D

when to our new campsite, during the nite, had fun games.. then went to bed.. next bed we woke up by ourselves.. did everything as quickly as possible =)

then... went out to have a short talk from our trainers..
WE was given a map and a compass.. and they asked us to present about what we know bout maps and compasses


My smaller group.. was discussing..

Everyone's a poser xD

WE were presenting.. haha..

Listening to what Kak KD was sayi ng.. quite boring lowh.. XP

haha, then we started our jungle trekking....


half-way trekking... tired lowhx.. summore carrying bags and cooking things you know, oh gosh.. never tried before carrying bag and go trekking.. as in so heavy the bag.. !!


almost reaching, but we took a picture first.. hehe.. spot me xP



At the campsite, me and mun fong clearin our things.. hehe..


washing the bottles...bytheway .. that water it's actually savlon, don't simply think okay.


Smile for the cam!


Shahril cooking fried chicken, gotta luv em' man.. I meant the chickens!!

That nite.. we did like a confession game.. telling our feelings out during that period of time.. and using watermelon as a tool to say thank you to people..

Mun Fong said thank you to me, and I actually mostly most wanted to thank was her.. but Farah had already thank her.. so sigh.. have to thank nother person lowh..

Thanks Mun Fong, for helping me out during that trip and following/ temaning me to the 'toilet' and for sleeping with me! lolx, didn't bathe 5 days leh.. all that we've been thru together, as a friend, as a team.. I shall never forget!

LAST DAY

went to the beach.. waiting for the speed boat.. hehe..meantime, we had to clean our tups..


cleaning it.. hehe..


holding it so it won't drop is very hard lowh..


Had a group photo before leaving.. xD

Candid shot.. hehe..

went back to base camp..then to meet everyone there.. met my friends back there.. =)

then we had to perform and stuff like dat.. They had a session where one person from each group to come out and tell his/her experience in behalf of the group members, then my members said that I had to go.. I was !@#@%#^ # but finally , I decided to go.. but after 3 person say finish.. then the MC say TIME FOR PERFORMANCE. Then I go !@!#@%$#%$#^$#%@ again.. haha.. but nevermind la..


At least I get to talk here, for while =) our RIGEL Team performing.. xD

had fun lowh.. that period of time.. hehe..
after everyone performed.. then we went to our groups and our trainers handed out our certificate.. hehe..


Me! so bangga taking the certificate.. =D

Last group photo..

It's a good thing that I didn't cry, cause I kept telling myself don't cry, I mean it's a happy day la.. don't go ruin ppl mood and make them cry also marh..

haha..

We did stay in langkawi for one day and one night.. but I need the sleep people, Ma bed is calling me.. Shall update that Whenever..

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Everyone's a sinner, so am I. It makes
no difference on how much sins you make,
but it makes a difference if you realise
your sins.

I am and I still liking you.

A tint of happiness whenever you talk to me,
A twinge of jealousy when I remember that you have someone else by your side
A sign of sadness when I see you sad..
I wish I could take it away,
and I wish you could take mine away.

Yours to own,
and yours to have.
I wish I had.

I always recall that particular day,
where my sweetest memories laid,
but when I am, back in reality,
it hits me , then I'm not yours to own ,
anymore.

I wish I could,
I hope I would,
I try my best,
but not my very best,
To let you go,
I didn't want to,
Lose every memories we had together,
every effect we had on each other,
everything we did together,
and to top it off,
each time we look in each other eyes.

Gah! this is so emo-ing lowh! darn it.. okay ,, I NEED TO SLEEP..

goody nite.. not trying to think of it!! argh..

-Lenna- =D

Todae, Lenna IS Happy. =D

Went to Time Square, bought a

New Shoe
New Slipper =D
New Clothes =p



Nice??? xD


It's PIG AGAIN! hehe.. sorry.. =p I just LURVE THEM SO MUCH, hey mayb soon I'll grow out of it?? HAHA.


Shooeee^^... replacement for my Baby sport shoe, which is going to the dumpsters soon.=(


Finally,

Clothes + Shoe makes a .....







POSER LENNA!!
wahahah...

=p

I should be updating for my camp, but camp alot of pictures and story.. So I shall update short short wan first.. hehe.. gtg sleep.. close to 1 am dy.. SHY..T =X

nite =)


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and mine only... =D


-Lenna d poser =p -

An e-mail.. which num are you..

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1...

If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2 ...

If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3 ...

If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4 ...

If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5...

If U were born on the 6th,15th,24th of any month then U r number 6...

If U were born on the 7th,16th,25th of any month then U r number 7...

If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8...

If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9...

Number 1

You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authoritive, famous person...always want to be and regarded as first on people position,they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people!


You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the localshop to the heart of the parliament because you are possitive and well tallented in numerous issues!! But in yourlife you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down.
This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behaviour you will be hated by some people too...


Your family life is very cool,you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children... You are pioneer, independent & original...


Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

I'm NUMBER 2!!!
Number 2

No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the Moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. you are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication. Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you.
You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).

If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation.. You will become poets, writers, any artistic business people!

You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole family.If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or

vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of your family...You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!

Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!


Number 3

You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. so wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get

anything without hard work! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone's attitud! e then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others. Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won't be long.. You will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it's over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow. You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!

Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!


Number 4

You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough wordpower..Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost)at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don't know what to do.. So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!!
Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing.. but you will be unemployed..
or will do very ordinary jobs. But you will take care of your family very well...All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too.. You are radical, patient, persistent, a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order...

Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!


Number 5

You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by justchatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are aperson who does anything when your head thinks "lets do this". You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humour ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tendto go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times 'coz your popularity.. You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it's your best teacher!!!

Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!



Number 6

Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You dont care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or workwise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveble by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kinda looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are ! a caring person towards your family & friends . If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgement, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further...

Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5!!!


Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above. You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime. It's probably the Lord given you al! l sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok? You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!

Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!


Number 8

You are a very strong personality, there's no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say "this is what". You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others. Well..once you get married (which is often
late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and yo! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as : the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents. You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!

Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!


Number 9

Hey..you guys are the uncompatible people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally. You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life. But when you achieve what you have done, it's always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people a! lways trust you. Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice. You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.

Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

I'm BACK!

Just a short post to tell you babezz I'm back.. haha..


dozzing off..


nites...

Off To Langkawi!

In how many hours left.. err.. lemme count.. around 19 hours and 30 minutes left, I'll be heading to LANGKAWI!!! =)

So fast dy horh.. holidays also gonna finish soon, then school gonna reopen, sigh.. can't afford to lose one week of school, but to think of it, I also ponteng coco , this could actually help out with the freaking 10% coco lowh! haha.. got plan dy wan.. =p

erm, so todae, went to get my stuffs which I haven get... hmm.. Haven pack yet.. sum shirts bought todae.. quickly go and wash .. haha..

anyways.. This camp, I hope it's gonna be fun lowh... ><

Since I can't bring my phone.. or whatsoeva electric appliances except camera..

ohwell, Might as well camwhore there.. HAHA!!

So sad la.. no music for one week.. then gonna miss school for one week,

Sure Pn.Goh gonna kutukz me wan >< then miss add maths.. arrhh.. miss chem.. ARGHHH.. miss bio.. yes! abit (xD) miss physics.. OH CRAP!

hahaha... hmm... gonna take a short nap now.. cause will be waking up around 2.30 later .. then have to start finishing up my undone hw.. oh crapcrap crappacino weyz..

oh well

it's all crapping..

gd nitez...

Darren , I'll miss you too!!
wahahah.. xD gila dy..

RACHEL, I'm already missing you.. !!! =)

gosh.. not gonna be with my family for a week! nooo.. I'm mummy and daddy's gal.. I'm like the home bug.. hahahah..

okay, gotta stop now before I type more crap..

ciaozzz


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-Lenna-

A Trip to Malacca! =)

Went for a trip to Malacca.. why?? don't wanna tell you why.. haha..

after that, for dinner went to a quite famous restaurant.. selling Chicken rice balls.. will post pictures , that's all..

A short post for todae =)



neh, famous rice balls =)



Erm, infamous taugeh.. lolx


Chickan xD


Look at all the foods.. teehee..

OKay, done.. =)



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-Lenna-

copying darren xD

stuck in a box full of sweet and sorrow memories... trying to get out... it's painful getting out from the box... but it's a step forward of your life ? isnt it ?

Of ex lovers and unforgetable memories.

Sorry to say, I really can't help it..

I still miss him lots.. I really tried to let go, to forget... but somehow, he just makes my mind go back to him..

and yes I'm jealous that he has someone else already.. I'm not sure if it's only in maple or real life.. anyhow, I'm jealous.. I'm fucking jealous, kay?

and I'm hurt... I'm hurt that he doesn't give a dam bout me nymore.. like after it ended,there was always somthing.. something..

like asking how I was or whatsoeva..

I know, i know.. I'm suppose to freaking let go right?? well, I am trying my hardest and failing my fullest on it .. for this past few days, I've been emo-ing alot..

and on monday-tuesday, went to rach's house to sleepover.. it felt so good to be with your bestest friends again. the 7 of us.. then me,rach,kw,sm started talking bout this topic..

and kw and sm made me and rach blab everything out.. when I was telling them bout the memories... some part of me was shy .. and every sentence said made me remember that particular memorable day.. and some part of me was scared and afraid.. cause I'm afraid that once I told them everything.. the memories would fade away..

and I didn't want it to fade away.. and that was when I realised... till now.. I didn't wanna let go..
it hurts to let go, to forget and yet to remember.. to remember that he's not mine anymore.. to forget the memorable memories we had? no way. I couldn't bare taking the last of our memories away. I couldn't bare to lose the memories...

It's like I'm being selfish horh?? haha.. I'm pathetic. haha. I try to make the best of my days.. and tried as hard not to think of him.. but some little things that connects to him, automatically brings back the memories.. seriously said.. I really still like him.. alot.

haha.hahahaha. unexplainable feelings.. well, these are the days when I think of him, and starts emo-ing..

now you see darren, why I say that my advice are useless?? I can't even let go of the person I LIKE, and I'm asking you to ! I don't have the authority to do that! I don't have the right to do that! sorry tho..

and Rach, all of them can wait , right ? wait for the special someone to come.. Let us all to wait together.. aite? gosh, I just saw you yesterday and I miss yoouu soo much already, you know that?? I extremely miss you.. and heck, I miss the cake as well..

Well, no matter what, I'm still gonna get on with my life, and keep trying to forget him, but not the memories I shared to him, it's just to valueable..

Just concentrate on other things.. and soon..I'll resume back to normal... treating him as a fren.. as usual.. gosh.. I hope he don read this.. but it would be amazing if he reads any one of our blogs.. lolx..

Everyone's a sinner, so am I. It makes
no difference on how much sins you make,
but it makes a difference if you realise
your sins.

I like that quote.. hmm..

I still like you.. =)

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-Lenna-

My Cute cute pictures.. LOL!

haha.. presenting .. my act cute pictures =p... hyperactive now..


=p


Looking at youu.. haha


I'm showing the L sign



I know this is ugly.. haha.. don't bother =p



Hii.. =p


Shh.. no idea what was I doing myself.. wahhaha


haha.. it's not a crime to act cute kay!!! lol... hey... gurls got their time when they wanna just be actually girly girly =p can't blame them .. haha.. and I know I'm a poser.. so no need to tell me =p
don't care le.. ugly ugly le.. was doing it for the sake of fun since till 5++ am still can't sleep adui...
having problem sleeping againz.. my eyes are like.. pannda eyes dy.. and pimples.. argh.. popping out.. here and there.. so scary.. need to cleanse and put mask.. =p

hey.. I jaga my face also wan okkkay.. =p

haha .. sigh whatever =p

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-Lenna- the poser =p