by the way

I really miss you guys!

Aaron, Mellie, Iggy, Yong Hui, Arthur, Hui Mien, carmen, Bryan, Fiona,Shwen Nee, Choa Rong, Justin, Hui Han, Hui Ching, Sonia,Yu Fai, Grace and the rest , the college gang.

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Siew May, El, Kah wEi, Rachel, Levina bum :D EVERYONE!

just feels different without you guys here, kena bullied at uni too D:

sigh. till then!

What do you do?

When you're uber busy, I know it's not much of an excuse,

but not being able to catch up on my studies and NEGLECTING my piano is never a good thing.

so I've decided on one thing, that is to make a sacrifice.

I'm sorry, but I have to let blogging go for a while.

No worries! not for long, till I get back on track with everything else and manage my time like super duper goody, haha, it's not good when you're a multi-tasker and you NEED to do many things at one time.

Hopefully :) till then,

before I go , a picture or two of me =p

Love love you guys

MUAH! haha.

p.s greatest apologies for the ugly skin D: but if I redo the skin , I will have to search for a new skin, then I would have to edit the html and goes on a list long. D:

p.p.s and don't feel funneh if I start blogging like two or three days later, you know I can't REALLY give up blogging, nyahahahaha. *just joking* =p

Happy Chinese New Year!

I would like to wish my blog readers, happy CNY.

How do you call yourself a brother, when all you do is go out?

how do you call yourself a brother, when all you do is be with her?

How do you call yourself a brother, when you don't even care?

How do you call yourself a brother, when you could even leave us at home when we need you to be with her?

How do you call yourself a brother, when you don't even set an example?

you only knew how to use words but there were no actions.

How do your call yourself a son, when all you do is spend?

How do your call yourself a son , when all you do is make them worry?

How do you call yourself a son, when you could even not listen to your parents?

How do you call yourself a son, when you can't even help your parents? did you TRY HARD ENOUGH? with the phones, everything?

How do you call yourself a son, when I called and said mummy was not feeling well, and all you could say is take care of her? you're sure it's nothing.

How do you call yourself family when you never cared what we think or what we feel?

How do you call yourself a grown man , when you can't even seem to support yourself?

sure you own big bucks now, but how much are there inside?

How do you call yourself a grown man, when you don't even plan,and just act?

How do you call yourself a grown man, when you can't even take care of yourself.

How do you call yourself a grown man, when all you care is "love"

How do you call yourself a grown man, when you lost my respect.

yes I know you are now 22 years old, but that still doesn't give you the right.

you may spend time with your significant other, but have you actually spend time with us?

We've been tolerant with you, but during this CNY? have you even stay at home one full day or even go out with us one full day, JUST YOU? just to spend time with your family?

JUST YOU, have you? CNY is all about togetherness, FAMILY COMES FIRST. NOT YOUR SO CALLED GIRLFRIEND.

YES I AM MAD, I AM MAD AT YOU. VERY MAD AND ALSO VERY DISAPPOINTED AND SAD.

you may not be read this, but it still feels better than keeping it inside. I don't want to tell you face to face because it's one too many times.

22 years of age is not tender anymore, you have to be responsible of the things you do, show that you can take care of yourself, start to save money for the future etc etc.

you have a family you know.

I do not need anyone to call and ask about this.

yes you Iggy. don't need to ask me how I feel whatsoever, I just need to get this out. that's it.

Teehee?

Okay, I know it's ugly, bear with it.

D:

busy, shall no sleep tonight, woohoo!

Oopssiee

Blog is under construction ;)

In Love

yes, I'm in love <3

with shania twin. :)

It's in the way you love me.

AMAZING, 2 post today.

anyways, I am once again disappointed.

it wasn't a last minute outing.

I asked since tuesday. TUESDAY, and now's it's saturday, and it's a no show.

all the last minute bailing. GOD , my friends are sooooo great.

bah, enough bout that, I'm a lousy organizer, kay there.

I have a sudden urge to say what I want.

I want Melbourne but I would be choosing UQ.

I want to learn how to dance. Jazz, contemporary, Jive, Tango, Salsa, you name it.

I had always wanted to learn an extra instrument besides piano, cause I know it's common, but it's beautiful.

I want to be an amazing baker, baking cookies for treats or during festivity.

I want to learn how to write with both hands.

I want to learn photography skills.

Secretly , I'd always wanted to cheer, yes cheerleader, period.

I want to learn mandarin, in writing and reading.

I want to improve my english, God knows it's not good enough.

I want to learn a different language. a foreign language.

I want to be able to have good memory and excel in my studies.

I want to always have the words to express my self and my ideas, especially stories =]

I want my stupid brother back, as in the one who cares. rather now =__= speechless.

I want my friends to care too.

I want a happy me.

:D

wheee...

let's see if I can still accomplish them , eh? hahaha, unlikely though, but it's nice to spill it out. :)

I want so much moreeeeee...

night ;D

Of broken keyboard and busy sched.

You see, I decided to be a good girl and clean my table etc etc.
Then I saw my keyboard was dirty with dust in between the keys.

Of course I itchy hand lo, no matter how I slide here and there, the dust would stay there,
then I started thinking, I've been typing with this keyboard for quite some time dy, all the germs and everything would be there.

So i saw in Darren's blog before that you can wash your keyboard without it getting spoiled, and it would still function. WTF , so naive to believe T_T.

So, I tried it.

and yes, it was pure crap lo, DARREN YOUR FAULT.

lol. wtf.

now not only do I have 3 lab reports to type, i mean yeah it's a group work but usually i would do the typing, a bio vid to finish, a chem blog to do, and I have no external keyboard to use. wtf wtf wtf.

I mean, i know the insides were wet, because I unscrewed it and I saw, so I went and fry the keyboard in the sun. It did work, only 3 keys was working. wtf.

and I haven't any time to go out, well it's not like I can drive myself out. I don't even trust myself. and parents are busy , ME TOO, i'm busy too, my little cousin is suppose to come over and I am suppose to teach him piano. He's like the guinea pig for me to test out my patience with kids and if I am suitable for teaching them or not. *evil cackle* wtf.

crap, what's with the usage of wtf ? I have no idea, just bout 15 minutes of reading fourfeetnine, and I am wtf-ing already.

I am a good gurl I don't curse, wtf. WTF, you see what i mean, wtf = =

OKAY, this is getting more and more ridiculous.
Today calculus test was per say, okay. I didn't know how to do question 2. I mean I know in some way, but I forgot in the other way. whatever.

okay back to my work with lousy lappie keyboard. CRIES and WAILS.

would my keyboard miraculously work again? *if I fry it summore*

okay, busy sched, I haven't finish cleaning my room!

okay no more dilly dallying

and no more okays, too much okays.

okay? = = WTF.

Clear and Confused.

Seriously, I have absolutely zero idea why I'm doing here,
or even blogging now.
BUT, I just had the sudden nagging to come and blog , although I am clueless to what .

Life in Uni is a bit hectic, with assignments and lab reports and not to mention tests ( Which I have to excel in , pardon me, it's a MUST) and I am studying actually, but really, no idea why.


I mean, maybe some part of me do feel lonely,
sort off losing contact with everyone , my friends, and even Iggy . yes with the shock face. haha.
I mean, I'm sort off in a comfortable state and at the same time, in a stressing state.

It's okay, need not words of comforts, but I have no idea why, mayb writing this now could do something to me?
Whoa, can you believe, so much had happen just during the past year, the past month, in a few days more, a week give or take,most of my college friends would be leaving. everythin happen so fast. and there's sad feeling that tells me "Hey Lenn, didn't you say you would spend time with them before they leave?" I've been so absorb in my life then I have unintentionally neglected others.

however, it doesn't bother me so much. HAHA. I don't even think this post makes sense. :)
but whatever.

I have my whole future ahead for me to BUILT, with my two bare hands
my grade 8 which I will ACE this year,
new friends to make with my still hidden courage.
and I want to learn photoshop to make my blog a better place.
There are so much things that I want to do at the same time,
therefore I need time management.
hopefully =]

I'm fine, I'm serious.

No calls needed, no text needed.

Love you guys ;)

bye.

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OH GOD.

UQ just called me to inquire if I was going to enroll there or not.
I FELT LIKE weeping. urgh.
A CONSTANT REMINDER that I FAILED.
I failed to meet the requirement and I am not of legal age yet.
however there's another option in TAYLOR, but again, requirements.
so disappointed. gosh gosh gosh.

Should stop assuming and dilly - dallying.
urgh, the numerous mistakes and disappointment I have gone through, this has got to stop.

cause, I don't know how long more I can take it,
or even face it.

I refuse to let disappointment haunt me for the rest of my life. The mistakes and regrets will end!