To Myself;

Lenn,

you have to start bucking up already,
Stop procrastinating on doing something.
stop making false promises, I thought you hated doing it? because you think that making promises meaning having to fulfill them, and if you don't, you're just a liar.
Stop letting other things distract you from doing what you need to do.
Education is the most important priority now.
When you have to do homework, do it. Don't let minor stuff distract you .

Lenn,

Buck up, you have a big examination this year.
and what are your goals?
saying that you will not fail for any papers for this coming exam.
and at least getting higher than grade C.
you think you can do that Lenn?
and how that you have neglected your piano.
You haven once touch it since after the Chinese new year break.

Lenn,

You seriously have to buck up. and learn how to put your priorities straight.
and manage time, divide them properly.
Learn what comes first and what comes next.
Stop stop stop procrastinating already.
saying you will do it later , and later becomes rushing to finish the work close to midnight.
like now.( which is close to 10pm. and you've been saying you will do your homework since 2pm)
Seriously, do not waste any more time.
do buck up. don't do last minute revision either.

If you can't handle this, then how are you going to handle the future?
the future you vow to make it a better one.
how may I ask, for you to lead a good life then?

I'm very scared of what the future lies, and how are my attitude toward things.
Learn to make effort to achieve something Lenn.
Please,really please.
We will soon see the result after this coming exam.

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I want to stop thinking things that will lead my emotions to wonder wild.
How sometimes I wish to not let my heart feel anything.
Let is be a heart of stone. I'm done being hurt, or ignored.
I don't want to be neglected, friends or whoever,
I don't want to feel lonely and alone.

Unable to find the words, unable to carry on,
I will just end this,
with a simple phrase.

your future is what you made of it, do not waste time,
do not let others affect of you, nor boast among the rest.
you are what you are, and no one can change that,
always believe in yourself. always``